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Hi!

Thank you for visiting my page. I pray blessings and encouragement on you while you are here. I started this page mostly to share what goes on inside my head. (and theres a lot) I needed a place to share my thoughts, feelings, ideas, so I thought a blog would be perfect!

Just a little bit about me 🙂

I am a believer of the gospel and believe it can change everything about you. I hope you see the love of Jesus through my writings!

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sincerely, Ansleigh 🙂

 

Comparison = Destruction

“But in fact God has placed the parts in the body, every one of them, just as he wanted them to be. If they were all one part, where would the body be? As it is, there are many parts, but one body.” 1 Corinthians 12:18-20

Comparison.
Something it seems like I’ve been very good at doing these days.
“Whoah, look at what that girl is doing with her life, her parents must be so proud. She’s doing awesome ministry and seems like she has her life together. I wish I could be like her.”
“You have the next 5 years of your life planned out?! Wow! Thats awesome! I don’t even know what ill be doing next summer. I wish I could be like you.”
“Wow, kids I graduated with are already on their second year of college. That means for most of them they only have two years left before they graduate. Their parents must be so proud of them.”
“Oh my gosh, listen to her sing! I could never sing like her, she sounds so much better than I do. I wish I could be like her.”
These are the things I tell myself all the time. In my mind, ill never be “as good” as some people. Their lives look so good. They have their friends, school is 1/2 way done for some of them, they know exactly what they are doing with their life…
And then there I am.
I don’t know when I’m going to school.
I don’t know what the future holds for me.
I don’t know.
And you know what? Im learning that is okay with me.

Every time we compare ourselves with someone else, we can never measure up because we’re comparing our insides with their outsides

I catch myself all the time comparing myself with others, and that leads into setting expectations that I can’t reach, which results in failing. Failure makes me feel like poo. I’m being 100% Honest with y’all.

It destroys my self confidence and makes me doubt my own abilities. All because I compared myself to one other person. Because I thought what I was doing wasn’t good enough.

If I spend my whole life comparing myself to others, I would never fully embrace who God made me to be. I wouldn’t be walking in my own identity. I would be chasing to be something else rather than just being me.

And that is so dangerous.

Somedays comparison gets the best of me, today for instance. The first day of school. I see my friends going to their First day back to college. These things shouldn’t bother me, but somedays they do.

But I have come to the realization that my life is different.

I know I am not called to live the “American Dream”

Would I love to be in college right now? YES!
Would I love to have my life planned out? YES!
Would I love to have a career pick out? YES!

But guess what?
My life isn’t mine.

Were all Called to be different parts of the body of Christ. Maybe He needs you to go to school right now. Or maybe He needs to to focus on Mission work right now. Maybe He needs you to stay at home and work. Were all called to do different things for Christ. And the second comparison creeps in, the second I lose sight of those things. The more I want to follow MY own plans.

I gave my life up when my knees hit the ground. I surrendered my plans. My thoughts. My ways.

I realize that just because my life doesn’t look like the ones around me, doesn’t mean I’m not doing something great with my life.

While I was at church camp, some of my friends and I were talking about our lives. I made a comment “Eh, my life stinks. Im not doing anything with myself it feels like” and someone responded back with so much love, and I could hear the confusion in their voice as they said, “but you’re a missionary”

And comparison almost stole that from me. I was busy comparing myself to others, that I forgot why I was here. I lost sight of who I was, because my mind was focused on who I thought I should be.

“Whatever your passion is, keep doing it. Don’t waste time chasing after success or comparing yourself to others. Every flower blooms at a different pace. Excel at doing what your passion is and only focus on perfecting it. Eventually people will see what you are great at doing, and if you are truly great, success will come chasing after you.”
― Suzy Kassem

the day I chose heartbreak.

We are all faced with many choices. Some will be easy, like where to eat (yes, I understand that this is “at times” a “HARD” choice) and others will not be as simple, like when its time to chose to let someone go.
I am a firm believer in the fact that God has a plan in store for all of us and in that is also our best interest. We may not always see that in the moment but faith is trusting in god and knowing his love for us goes beyond what we can imagine. In Jeremiah 29:11 it says “for I know the plans I have for you, says the lord. Plans to prosper you, not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.”
There comes a time in our relationship whether friends or something more that we have to choose heartbreak. There comes a time we have to say goodbye and step away because it is just not apart of God’s plan. And that is okay. Listen to this: IT IS OKAY TO BE HEARTBROKEN.
It is better for us to step away from something that we know will bring us down and something that we know is not good for us than to continue to live in that, that is not in the will of God. To have the courage and strength to walk away is hard and it takes a lot of yourself but our purpose is to glorify God and to make him known.
As humans we are naturally selfish and I think can all admit that at times it is hard not to be. We think we know what is best for us and what will make us happy. We also only see a small part of the bigger plan. If we choose to stay in harmful relationships, we are dishonoring God and in the long run we are only going to cause ourselves and the other person more pain.
Sometimes we have to just take a step back and look around us to see that what we Believe will make us happy and what we want to make us happy aren’t always what we think they are going to be.
My friend, walk away. Walk away before it is too late. Walk away before you are far too committed or before it becomes too serious to the point you feel like you can’t walk away. Choose heartbreak now and choose to follow God’s plan for your life knowing He will work all things together for good. (Romans 8:28)
Tracie miles from Proverbs31 Ministries writes about a time in her life where she chose to choose Gods plans over her own. She writes,
“However, I quickly discovered that Gods plan was so much better than mine. I realized that I had been unable to understand His plan, until I was willing to lay aside my own, and that I had to choose Him, before he could show me His will for my life. But God had been working on my heart for years, preparing me for that moment. He had gradually shifted my desires to building his kingdom, more so than building my resume. He had inspired me to see the hearts of the people of my office, not just the problems in the people. And He had helped me to see that lasting success and happiness could be found in Him alone, not through my own accomplishments. Choosing Christ’s plans, over our own plans, will always result in more peace or blessing than we could ever imagine.”
It is okay to walk away from someone and be heartbroken about it. The reason it is okay: God is bigger than all of it. He is bigger than our hopes and dreams He is far bigger than our heartbreak. And because all of that we can choose to rest in him and find comfort in him during those hard moments when the choices we have to make are so difficult.
I know it hurts, but believe me when I say this, the pain you’re feeling can’t compare to the joy thats coming.